fragile and thin

Sat, 16 Aug 2008 02:40:17 GMT

and how do i start over...?

Tue, 27 Nov 2007 18:00:07 GMT

yesterday i did so well! I'm down almost everything i gained during the weekend, so i'm motivated :)
i think it's possible that tomorrow i'll be at a lower weight than before i gained, but we'll see...
i really wish my jeans would be kinda baggy on me, but they're just disgustingly tight.

but i'll get there :)

Mon, 26 Nov 2007 16:53:04 GMT

lesson learned: don't take advice from people who tell you that eating integral bread is good for your metabolism.

i gained over 2 pounds because i tried that. i'm so gross, i can see the fat all over my face. but now i'll stick to my plans and i hope to get rid of the gained weight by tomorrow. i won't update the ticker thing until i lose more than i was back then. any tips on how to get your metabolism going, please tell me. i already drink all sorts of teas and i'm not willing to eat. much less 6 times a day. so yeah...

i'm on diet coke until i lose the 2lbs gained plus 2lbs. i look seriously disgusting. it's so sad :(

Tue, 20 Nov 2007 16:10:19 GMT

have you ever felt like sabotaging yourself? this is so far beyond being thin... me vs me. and all of sudden i feel like i'm the ugliest person on earth and worst: i want to be the ugliest person on earth :/ i need friends who'll talk me out of it :(

Sun, 18 Nov 2007 23:28:07 GMT

i HAVE to be 15 pounds lighter by december 8th (21 days). i don't care how hard it is, i'll do whatever it takes.

today was a good day. i have big plans for this week.

Sat, 17 Nov 2007 04:12:55 GMT

i hate pizza hut. i hate smileys (those baked potato things). i hate myself. i REALLY hate knowing that when i wake up by tomorrow morning, there'll be a difference of about 3 pounds plus :/ i think i was doing ok, this really is my first binge in about a month :( i couldn't purge cause it was late and my parents were at home. i had 4 smileys. i can almost feel them going straight to my thighs. and arms. fuck i hate my arms. and these thighs are disgusting and obese. i'll fast tomorrow and the day after and the day after... i'm so disappointed at myself. plus, i haven't slept in about 3 days now

Tue, 13 Nov 2007 04:34:31 GMT

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