urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nightmareend nightmareend nightmareend 2008-08-22T03:40:17Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nightmareend:2232 2008-08-16T02:40:17Z 2008-08-16T02:40:17Z and how do i start over...? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nightmareend:2042 2007-11-27T18:00:07Z 2007-11-27T18:01:32Z <p><font size="1">yesterday i did so well! I'm down almost everything i gained during the weekend, so i'm motivated :)<br />i think it's possible that tomorrow i'll be at a lower weight than before i gained, but we'll see...<br />i really wish my jeans would be kinda baggy on me, but they're just disgustingly tight.<br /><br />but i'll get there :)<br /></font><br /><img alt="" src="http://img88.imageshack.us/img88/7533/cutemkfi6.jpg" /></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nightmareend:1658 2007-11-26T16:53:04Z 2007-11-26T17:00:07Z <p><font size="1">lesson learned: don't take advice from people who tell you that eating integral bread is good for your metabolism.<br /><br />i gained over 2 pounds because i tried that. i'm so gross, i can see the fat all over my face. but now i'll stick to my plans and i hope to get rid of the gained weight by tomorrow. i won't update the ticker thing until i lose more than i was back then. any tips on how to get your metabolism going, please tell me. i already drink all sorts of teas and i'm not willing to eat. much less 6 times a day. so yeah... <br /><br />i'm on diet coke until i lose the 2lbs gained&nbsp;plus 2lbs. i look seriously disgusting. it's so sad :(</font><br /><br /><img alt="" src="http://img215.imageshack.us/img215/9992/157287358lt1.jpg" /></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nightmareend:1347 2007-11-20T16:10:19Z 2007-11-20T16:20:17Z <p><font size="1">have you ever felt like sabotaging yourself? this is so far beyond being thin... me vs me. and all of sudden i feel like i'm the ugliest person on earth and worst: i want to be the ugliest person on earth :/ i need friends who'll talk me out of it :(</font></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nightmareend:1149 2007-11-18T23:28:07Z 2007-11-18T23:28:34Z <font size="1">i HAVE to be 15 pounds lighter by december 8th (21 days). i don't care how hard it is, i'll do whatever it takes.<br /><br /><img alt="" src="http://img215.imageshack.us/img215/6283/normalarte05kp4zz7.jpg" /><br /><br />today was a good day. i have big plans for this week.</font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nightmareend:869 2007-11-17T04:12:55Z 2007-11-20T16:06:21Z <font size="1">i hate pizza hut. i hate smileys (those baked potato things). i hate myself. i REALLY&nbsp; hate knowing that when i wake up by tomorrow morning, there'll be a difference of about 3 pounds plus :/ i think i was doing ok, this really is my first binge in about a month :( i couldn't purge cause it was late and my parents were at home. i had 4 smileys. i can almost feel them going straight to my thighs. and arms. fuck i hate my arms. and these thighs are disgusting and&nbsp;obese. i'll fast tomorrow and the day after and the day after... i'm so disappointed at myself. plus, i haven't slept in about 3 days now<br /><br /></font><a name="cutid1"></a><div class="ljcut" text="thinspiration"><font size="1"><img alt="" src="http://img236.imageshack.us/img236/2185/1170980812fdl9.jpg" /><br /><br /><img alt="" src="http://img236.imageshack.us/img236/1119/1177017207fzq1.jpg" /><br /><br /><img alt="" src="http://img211.imageshack.us/img211/8256/51456908pb7.jpg" /><br /><br /><img alt="" src="http://img211.imageshack.us/img211/4981/1173124025fag9.jpg" /><br /><br /><img alt="" src="http://img219.imageshack.us/img219/8852/mkaba9.jpg" /><br /><br /><br /></font></div> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nightmareend:692 2007-11-13T04:34:31Z 2008-08-22T03:40:17Z <font size="1"><a>the daily plate</a><br /><a>weight converter</a><a href="http://www.TickerFactory.com/weight-loss/w9qqTRT/"><br /><br /></a><br />til christmas...<br /><br /><a href="http://www.TickerFactory.com/weight-loss/w9qqTRT/"><img border="0" alt="" src="http://tickers.TickerFactory.com/ezt/t/w9qqTRT/weight.png" /></a><br /><br /></font><font size="1">since august 21, 2008.</font>